So I guess I live in LA now. I never thought I would say that.. a lot of people thought I would never say that. But after a lot of pushing and prodding from my family, friends, and even Joan Cusack (who came to me in a dream *random*) I decided that it was now or never.
Honestly, anyone who knows me well probably didn't expect this to ever happen. I am typically a *dreamer* not a *doer*. I have spent the past 20 years of my life trying to figure out who the hell I want to be.. my family has watched me blossom from a soccer player/ballerina into an actress, poet, singer, nanny, pet sitter, American Idol, photographer, producer, writer, director, and costume designer. One time my father sat me down and told me that he thought that maybe my true passion in life was finding someone to share it with, and and start a family...(was that a cry for grandchildren??) Although that is a goal of mine someday, it was never the only dream I have had. Apparently, Hollywood is the only place to make all of my dreams come true..so I guess that is why I am here.Leaving Arizona was probably one of the toughest decisions I have ever had to make. I could compare it to leaving my life in MN, but that decision was made for me- and I really didn't have a choice. I spent almost half of my life in AZ.. 12 years.. that is a long ass time. So many memories, but it was definitely time to get over the *fear* of becoming the person I have always dreamed of, and accept the fact that this place that I have *loathed* for so long, could possibly be the only place where that can happen.
“Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown.”
~ Jennifer
Great blog, Jenn. Love you, miss you, but you really did the right thing. The only way to get anything is to go for it, and it usually involves leaving your comfort zone. Just stay that sweet Jenn that you are...don't become all "L.A." on us!
ReplyDeleteOh, and maybe use a slightly bigger FONT!!!
A Bigger Font would be great for tired old eyes like mine... ;-)
ReplyDeleteA. Einstein said: "There is no growth without friction". Think about what a tree has to go through to break out of it's seed, or a chicken out of an egg.
While there will probably be some friction, which means you're going to do some growing, I know you're ready for this step and that you'll do great!
You have a very special spirit, and people pick up on it wherever you go. That spirit will always be your guide and it's up to you to take the next step. Your move to LA is one of those steps, and without missing a beat, you're already in full Jenn mode; networking, engaging and moving the ball forward.
Always remember... Actors must Act, Singers, must Sing, Producers must Produce, etc., and whatever you do, just do it!
While you'll always be my baby lady, I know that everyone will come to know you as the person and spirit that your family and friends know and love today, and that you are poised to rock the world!
AML, AW! - Dad